NaPoWriMo: Losing Innocence

I wish I had
Stolen
candy bars
and
broke in
to the neighbor’s
pool.

I wish I had
Ditched class
to smoke weed
and pull pranks
with my friends.

I wish I had
Disappointed
my parents
for sneaking out
or coming home past curfew.

I wish I had.

Instead
I cheated
to save myself
from a life
of suffocation
and learned it a
valuable
tool.

Instead,
I whored
myself out
to save
the stranger’s
pride
and
sacrificed
all self-respect.

Instead
I lied
and lied some more
carrying the burden
in my heart
for some one else
to break free
and hurt themselves
on my lost innocence.